How would you describe the work that you do?
I'm self-employed. In addition to my creative businesses, I earn money working as a spanking model, actress and producer/director. I also very occasionally do mainstream studio modelling, but I've pretty much faded this out of my professional repertoire.
How would you describe the sex work that you do?
I act in porn films. The films tend not to be explicit (there's been a bit of soft girl/girl and boy/girl in some of the films I've made, but only when I've been working with close friends or lovers. I'd consider taking it further if I was acting alongside a real-life lover, but for the most part spanking movies are non-sexual). Mostly I play characters who suffer corporal punishment in photostories, short web clips and longer movies (including feature-length films). Very occasionally I take on the role of the top or spanker, but this doesn't come naturally to me so I only really do it as an acting challenge. I'm kinky in my private life and enjoy erotic pain and discipline with my partners, and it's important to me that my own fantasies and desires are represented in the porn I create. I will occasionally make a film that I wouldn't enjoy watching, but only for the sake of working with friends. When I first started out I needed the money and would get involved a wider range of projects, but these days I try to limit it to projects I find sexually exciting and creatively rewarding.
I sometimes produce my own material, and I'm trying to do more of this. At the moment I'm filming content for a new movies site which will hopefully go live later in 2009. A lot of studios and sites are very happy to give creative control to their actors, and I've written and directed a substantial quantity of the material I've performed in. I also work as a producer/director of full-length CP films, with companies I started out working for as a model.
How did you get into making pornography? What do you think persuaded you to do it?
I started out doing art nude modelling for a photographer friend. I've always been very unabashed about sexuality and nudity, and there didn't seem anything wrong with posing nude for a trusted friend. There was nothing sexual about the shoot - it was comfortable and respectful. I was 20 and had a lot of body image issues; seeing aesthetically pleasing, artistic photos of my naked body was the first step on the journey of learning to see myself as beautiful.
I tend to think analytically about most new things I learn, and looking at the results of my first shoot I could already see things I wanted to do better and ways I could improve my modelling. So I uploaded some of the shots to a modelling site, and expressed interest in doing low-key unpaid shoots with local photographers. I turned down a lot of offers which made me feel uncomfortable (one guy wanted to shoot my face while I brought myself to orgasm. I knew for certain I wasn't up for that; although these days it might be a different story, with the right photographer), but I did a couple more shoots with a young local photographer. Some of the images we produced together were, if I say so myself, beautiful; and I found modelling creatively fulfilling in a way I hadn't imagined. I loved how much aesthetic control I had. It was as if I was a painting and the photographer was realising me. I found it liberating and empowering.
Pretty soon I was offered my first paid shoot. It was more explicit than the art nude stuff I'd done before. "UK Magazine" level refers to explicit genital shots, but no sexual activity (as opposed to "US Magazine", which includes shots of the model masturbating). The reason I was okay with this was that it was for a special-interest magazine (in the States, funnily enough) focussed on unshaven girls. It was sort of a girl-next-door, retro appeal. Apparently there's quite a wide market for it. Now, I prefer to be shaved usually, but something about the explicit rejection of plastic Barbie-doll mainstream porn really appealed to me. I agreed to grow back my pubic hair and bikini line (legs and armpits were optional) for the shoot. The other reason I went for it is that I was being offered �300 for a day's work. I was an impoverished student and it was a huge sum of money to earn all at once. Why not try it? At the end of the day I could take my cash and I'd never have to do it again if I didn't like it.
It was interesting. Aesthetically, it wasn't my thing - this isn't the kind of porn I'd ever look at, I only look at kinky stuff - but I realised I was quite good at it, and it still contained all the aspects of nude modelling that I loved. The guy I was working with was very professional and I was surprised by how much care he took framing the shots and trying to create interesting and pleasing images. I guess what I'm trying to say is that it didn't feel like selling out. I didn't mind being a part of this industry. If I was helping some bloke who liked fantasising about girls with real body hair get his kicks, I could feel proud of that. I mean, I like girls with real body hair too. It felt real.
I did a couple more shoots that year. I started getting into bondage and other fetish genres. Although I'm happy with explicit shots being included in kinky scenarios, I never did another straightforward "UK Mag" shoot again. Once was fine, but I don't find it that interesting; I prefer subtlety and storytelling in my erotic imagery.
I realised I loved modelling for painters (not life modelling, but photoshoots for artists creating reference photos for their work); that I loved posing in my collection of gothic Victoriana and corsetry; that I loved the whole "Bettie Page" style of fetish imagery. I kept updating my modelling profile to reflect my interests. A couple of weeks after I'd moved to London I was offered my first spanking shoot. Only light spanking, the photographer said, mostly posed stills, but maybe a bit of actual punishment if I was comfortable with it. I'd never crossed this barrier into my personal kink before, and I was excited by the opportunity. And the money compared favourably to the UK Magazine shoot.
The photographer was called Jason Oak, and we got on well - he was smart, young, kinky and very easy to work with. The spanker was a mild-mannered elderly gent without much confidence or professional experience, but that was possibly for the best given my own nerves! I had a lot of fun, andcame out of the shoot with several really cool photosets.
The shoot took place at CP Services London, a M/m CP studio who produce their own material and offer private sessions to clients. They've got a beautiful townhouse conversion which is done up inside like an old-fashioned headmaster's study, complete with mechanical typewriter and antique newspapers. They hire it out as a venue for sessions and shoots as well as using it for their own business. I got chatting to the owner and he told me they were considering introducing girls to their business model, and asked if I'd be interested in doing sessions with them. I decided not. Although I can see why my friends who do sessions enjoy it so much - it has a lot in common with roleplaying on camera - I'm personally more comfortable being paid by photographers and filmmakers to make films and images, than I am being directly paid by the spanker. One of my boyfriends is particularly unhappy with the idea of me doing more "immediate" sex-work; spanking as a means to the end of creating cool porn is one thing, but he wanted to draw a line at the point where people were personally paying to hit me. I wasn't particularly keen to branch out, only mildly curious, so I was happy to keep things within my partner's limits.
Anyway, Keith who runs CP Services London suggested a halfway house: sessions in which he or his partner disciplined me alongside a client. I think a lot of male spankos fantasise about scenarios in which they and a girl are punished together, for example in a school context. I wouldn't be spanked by the client, I'd be an actress brought in to enhance their fantasy. The people spanking me would be the CP professionals who ran CP Services London. So I thought that sounded feasible, and they told me to create a website so they could link me and promote me.
I spent the next week locked to my desk creating Pandora's Bot. The funny thing is that I never did do a session at CP Services London. Somehow it never quite happened, but by the time I'd joined a few free spanking ad sites and model directories, I was getting offers of film work and didn't need to chase it up.
Being on a film set is exhilirating, and I've found that taking punishment on camera was nothing like playing in private. I'm in character, and if my character hates her punishment then chances are I'm too immersed in her headspace for me to be actively enjoying it. But sometimes, a secret part of me will be turned on, underneath the acting.
Afterwards, I always enjoy having just done it, remembering it and enjoying the high. There's the adrenaline and performance thrill, just like being on stage, but there's also the endorphine surge from the pain. I'd describe myself as a masochist - I get high off pain in the right circumstances - and it turns out that being hurt by another actor on camera is one of those circumstances. I tend not to get physically aroused unless I have a sexual chemistry with the spanker, but the high happens every time. As long as I'm playing in a plausible scenario that appeals to my fantasies, I can reach that place. It's exhilirating and compelling.
The most important appeal, for me, is the creative input. I'm creating the kind of porn I love to look at; I have the ability to produce porn that's high quality, interesting, responsible. A few giant corporations shouldn't monopolise the erotic industry. Porn should be an open market, anyone should be able to produce the kind of porn they're into. I'm certainly glad that I can.
Have you had any unpleasant experiences?
Yeah, a couple. As a model - even a mainstream model - you learn to trust your instincts. If something is off in someone's communication, in their emails, I won't book a shoot with them. You develop street smarts and you look out for yourself. I always insist on being put in touch with models a photographer has previously worked for to check that they're safe, respectful and fun to work with. If a photographer is unwilling to provide references I won't work with them. Sometimes, however, you get it wrong.
The time I got it wrong, it was because the studio offering me the work was well-known and well-respected. If someone has been making spanking films for ten years and all the well-known models in the industry have worked for them, they seem much more trustworthy. But actually the studios who have been going the longest can be the most backwards. There's an old-school, sleazy seam running through the industry from when spanking films were highly illegal and produced underground; when it was far less safe and far less public. Some of the producers don't care about the fantasies or personalities of the models they hire; they just want to get as much punishment out of them as they can. In recent years women have become more and more powerful in the spanking industry and a lot of the most successful sites now are run by women and models. The internet encourages transparency. Most of my favourite spanking sites these days insist not only on respect and consent but on desire - that the models should be genuinely into what they're doing - which you just don't see in the more old-school studios.
There's only been one studio who really didn't respect my wishes. I did two shoots with them; the first had a bit of an odd flavour to it, but nothing that actually crossed the line. They persuaded me to shoot for them again the following week and I agreed on the understanding that it would be a light, short shoot and I'd be working alongside other models I knew well. I had another shoot coming up a few days later which I needed to be unmarked for, and I got their explicit agreement that they would be careful. I knew the venue owners and there'd be a lot of people around, so I figured it would be safe. They didn't stick to the agreement, though, and I didn't feel like my boundaries or wishes were being taken seriously. It's hard to describe what makes you feel like that, but once I start to feel uncomfortable, my pain threshold becomes much lower. I wasn't quite sure of how to handle the situation and the other models didn't seem to pick up on any of what I was sensing. But the director was dictating everything that happened rather than negotiating it; they used a different implement to the one they'd asked me to pick out before we started; they had no regard for whether they bruised me, despite our agreement, and strokes were wrapping and landing low. That kind of thing. One time I had to cut the scene to ask a question, because the CP was much harder than they'd led me to expect, and I hadn't been given enough information to feel comfortable. I didn't really trust them by this point, so I asked for a number; how many more strokes before we stop? Any reputable studio will tell you this unasked; mostly they'll decide in consultation with the model rather than just ploughing ahead without asking. But the director had a huff and made me feel like I'd ruined the scene. He made me feel bad about having cut, rather than trying to look after me because I was obviously uncomfortable. It was shocking because it was so unusual - normally the model's comfort is the first priority of everyone on set. I gritted my teeth through the rest of the set, collected my money and never worked for them again.
That's pretty much the only bad shoot I've had, though. One other studio has a tendency to ask me to do things I'm not into, like mentioning pee or other bodily fluids in the scene's dialogue - but in every other way they're respectful and courteous. I don't tend to shoot with them any more, but that's not because they're unsafe to work with - they're just producing a different kind of material than the stuff I'm into.
Have you any thoughts on why so many graduates are choosing to go into sex work?
I can't say I've noticed the trend! Having said that, I know that the spanking scene is a very privileged scene, on the whole. The majority of it in England is white, middle-class, educated. A lot of avuncular gentlemen who appreciate an educated young lady and a smart accent. But regardless of their class or education, I've noticed that the kinky people I've met tend to be articulate and self-aware. I guess if you've come to terms with having a sexuality which is frowned upon by the mainstream, that shows a certain independence of thought. Certainly in the spanking blogosphere, being analytical and thoughtful is pretty much the norm.
Respect and protection -do you think sex workers get too little or too much? (or just enough!)
I'd like to see a couple more protective measures in place. For instance, you'll notice that I haven't named the studio I've had uncomfortable experiences with. I've debated this one ever since it happened and I'm still undecided. On the one hand, I feel I should warn other models that they're unsafe, and I tend to do this in private conversation whenever it comes up. On the other hand, I don't want to start a confrontation in a public forum that will devolve into scene politics. I don't want to start a public debate about whether I was right to be offended or not; I don't want to rehash the experience that many times. I posted an article to a models-only forum about it and I've mentioned it to the other models I know, but I don't know if scene etiquette would permit me to name and shame them on my blog.
I've considered for a while starting a spanking-specific models-only forum for discussing this kind of thing, but I don't know how we'd moderate membership. I've also considered starting a private mailing list for the same purpose. I'm still considering it.
In the meantime, a lot of the spanking models and actresses in the scene write personal blogs. Some of them are marketing-oriented but a lot of them are deeply personal - and very political. There are a lot of feminists in the scene and our voices are gradually getting heard.
Blogging is a great safety net. Not only does it reassure non-kinky sceptics that yes, I love what I do and I'm not being oppressed or coerced, it provides a platform for me to be conscientious about the ramifications of the work I do, negotiate the tension between personal freedom and social responsibility. Dialogue of this kind is invaluable. Personally, I wouldn't feel comfortable making edgy or violent porn if I wasn't also blogging about why it's problematic and why I've made the decisions I have.
Another consequence of being a well-known blogger is that the people I work with will think twice before mistreating me! You acquire a sort of faux-celebrity status. It makes me feel a bit awkward - I don't particularly want to be famous - but I think it must keep me safe to some extent; I haven't had any problematic shoots since my blog started being widely-read. It's also given me the confidence and the motivation to only do work I enjoy and work with people I trust. I'm very evangelistic about blogging for porn actresses (and actors!) in any genre. I think it's the future of the industry. Giving voice to our desires and opinions is the necessary counterpoint to films where we're playing the victim. Blogging keeps us empowered and responsible, and I think the importance of that can't be overstated.
I'm self-employed. In addition to my creative businesses, I earn money working as a spanking model, actress and producer/director. I also very occasionally do mainstream studio modelling, but I've pretty much faded this out of my professional repertoire.
How would you describe the sex work that you do?
I act in porn films. The films tend not to be explicit (there's been a bit of soft girl/girl and boy/girl in some of the films I've made, but only when I've been working with close friends or lovers. I'd consider taking it further if I was acting alongside a real-life lover, but for the most part spanking movies are non-sexual). Mostly I play characters who suffer corporal punishment in photostories, short web clips and longer movies (including feature-length films). Very occasionally I take on the role of the top or spanker, but this doesn't come naturally to me so I only really do it as an acting challenge. I'm kinky in my private life and enjoy erotic pain and discipline with my partners, and it's important to me that my own fantasies and desires are represented in the porn I create. I will occasionally make a film that I wouldn't enjoy watching, but only for the sake of working with friends. When I first started out I needed the money and would get involved a wider range of projects, but these days I try to limit it to projects I find sexually exciting and creatively rewarding.
I sometimes produce my own material, and I'm trying to do more of this. At the moment I'm filming content for a new movies site which will hopefully go live later in 2009. A lot of studios and sites are very happy to give creative control to their actors, and I've written and directed a substantial quantity of the material I've performed in. I also work as a producer/director of full-length CP films, with companies I started out working for as a model.
How did you get into making pornography? What do you think persuaded you to do it?
I started out doing art nude modelling for a photographer friend. I've always been very unabashed about sexuality and nudity, and there didn't seem anything wrong with posing nude for a trusted friend. There was nothing sexual about the shoot - it was comfortable and respectful. I was 20 and had a lot of body image issues; seeing aesthetically pleasing, artistic photos of my naked body was the first step on the journey of learning to see myself as beautiful.
I tend to think analytically about most new things I learn, and looking at the results of my first shoot I could already see things I wanted to do better and ways I could improve my modelling. So I uploaded some of the shots to a modelling site, and expressed interest in doing low-key unpaid shoots with local photographers. I turned down a lot of offers which made me feel uncomfortable (one guy wanted to shoot my face while I brought myself to orgasm. I knew for certain I wasn't up for that; although these days it might be a different story, with the right photographer), but I did a couple more shoots with a young local photographer. Some of the images we produced together were, if I say so myself, beautiful; and I found modelling creatively fulfilling in a way I hadn't imagined. I loved how much aesthetic control I had. It was as if I was a painting and the photographer was realising me. I found it liberating and empowering.
Pretty soon I was offered my first paid shoot. It was more explicit than the art nude stuff I'd done before. "UK Magazine" level refers to explicit genital shots, but no sexual activity (as opposed to "US Magazine", which includes shots of the model masturbating). The reason I was okay with this was that it was for a special-interest magazine (in the States, funnily enough) focussed on unshaven girls. It was sort of a girl-next-door, retro appeal. Apparently there's quite a wide market for it. Now, I prefer to be shaved usually, but something about the explicit rejection of plastic Barbie-doll mainstream porn really appealed to me. I agreed to grow back my pubic hair and bikini line (legs and armpits were optional) for the shoot. The other reason I went for it is that I was being offered �300 for a day's work. I was an impoverished student and it was a huge sum of money to earn all at once. Why not try it? At the end of the day I could take my cash and I'd never have to do it again if I didn't like it.
It was interesting. Aesthetically, it wasn't my thing - this isn't the kind of porn I'd ever look at, I only look at kinky stuff - but I realised I was quite good at it, and it still contained all the aspects of nude modelling that I loved. The guy I was working with was very professional and I was surprised by how much care he took framing the shots and trying to create interesting and pleasing images. I guess what I'm trying to say is that it didn't feel like selling out. I didn't mind being a part of this industry. If I was helping some bloke who liked fantasising about girls with real body hair get his kicks, I could feel proud of that. I mean, I like girls with real body hair too. It felt real.
I did a couple more shoots that year. I started getting into bondage and other fetish genres. Although I'm happy with explicit shots being included in kinky scenarios, I never did another straightforward "UK Mag" shoot again. Once was fine, but I don't find it that interesting; I prefer subtlety and storytelling in my erotic imagery.
I realised I loved modelling for painters (not life modelling, but photoshoots for artists creating reference photos for their work); that I loved posing in my collection of gothic Victoriana and corsetry; that I loved the whole "Bettie Page" style of fetish imagery. I kept updating my modelling profile to reflect my interests. A couple of weeks after I'd moved to London I was offered my first spanking shoot. Only light spanking, the photographer said, mostly posed stills, but maybe a bit of actual punishment if I was comfortable with it. I'd never crossed this barrier into my personal kink before, and I was excited by the opportunity. And the money compared favourably to the UK Magazine shoot.
The photographer was called Jason Oak, and we got on well - he was smart, young, kinky and very easy to work with. The spanker was a mild-mannered elderly gent without much confidence or professional experience, but that was possibly for the best given my own nerves! I had a lot of fun, andcame out of the shoot with several really cool photosets.
The shoot took place at CP Services London, a M/m CP studio who produce their own material and offer private sessions to clients. They've got a beautiful townhouse conversion which is done up inside like an old-fashioned headmaster's study, complete with mechanical typewriter and antique newspapers. They hire it out as a venue for sessions and shoots as well as using it for their own business. I got chatting to the owner and he told me they were considering introducing girls to their business model, and asked if I'd be interested in doing sessions with them. I decided not. Although I can see why my friends who do sessions enjoy it so much - it has a lot in common with roleplaying on camera - I'm personally more comfortable being paid by photographers and filmmakers to make films and images, than I am being directly paid by the spanker. One of my boyfriends is particularly unhappy with the idea of me doing more "immediate" sex-work; spanking as a means to the end of creating cool porn is one thing, but he wanted to draw a line at the point where people were personally paying to hit me. I wasn't particularly keen to branch out, only mildly curious, so I was happy to keep things within my partner's limits.
Anyway, Keith who runs CP Services London suggested a halfway house: sessions in which he or his partner disciplined me alongside a client. I think a lot of male spankos fantasise about scenarios in which they and a girl are punished together, for example in a school context. I wouldn't be spanked by the client, I'd be an actress brought in to enhance their fantasy. The people spanking me would be the CP professionals who ran CP Services London. So I thought that sounded feasible, and they told me to create a website so they could link me and promote me.
I spent the next week locked to my desk creating Pandora's Bot. The funny thing is that I never did do a session at CP Services London. Somehow it never quite happened, but by the time I'd joined a few free spanking ad sites and model directories, I was getting offers of film work and didn't need to chase it up.
Being on a film set is exhilirating, and I've found that taking punishment on camera was nothing like playing in private. I'm in character, and if my character hates her punishment then chances are I'm too immersed in her headspace for me to be actively enjoying it. But sometimes, a secret part of me will be turned on, underneath the acting.
Afterwards, I always enjoy having just done it, remembering it and enjoying the high. There's the adrenaline and performance thrill, just like being on stage, but there's also the endorphine surge from the pain. I'd describe myself as a masochist - I get high off pain in the right circumstances - and it turns out that being hurt by another actor on camera is one of those circumstances. I tend not to get physically aroused unless I have a sexual chemistry with the spanker, but the high happens every time. As long as I'm playing in a plausible scenario that appeals to my fantasies, I can reach that place. It's exhilirating and compelling.
The most important appeal, for me, is the creative input. I'm creating the kind of porn I love to look at; I have the ability to produce porn that's high quality, interesting, responsible. A few giant corporations shouldn't monopolise the erotic industry. Porn should be an open market, anyone should be able to produce the kind of porn they're into. I'm certainly glad that I can.
Have you had any unpleasant experiences?
Yeah, a couple. As a model - even a mainstream model - you learn to trust your instincts. If something is off in someone's communication, in their emails, I won't book a shoot with them. You develop street smarts and you look out for yourself. I always insist on being put in touch with models a photographer has previously worked for to check that they're safe, respectful and fun to work with. If a photographer is unwilling to provide references I won't work with them. Sometimes, however, you get it wrong.
The time I got it wrong, it was because the studio offering me the work was well-known and well-respected. If someone has been making spanking films for ten years and all the well-known models in the industry have worked for them, they seem much more trustworthy. But actually the studios who have been going the longest can be the most backwards. There's an old-school, sleazy seam running through the industry from when spanking films were highly illegal and produced underground; when it was far less safe and far less public. Some of the producers don't care about the fantasies or personalities of the models they hire; they just want to get as much punishment out of them as they can. In recent years women have become more and more powerful in the spanking industry and a lot of the most successful sites now are run by women and models. The internet encourages transparency. Most of my favourite spanking sites these days insist not only on respect and consent but on desire - that the models should be genuinely into what they're doing - which you just don't see in the more old-school studios.
There's only been one studio who really didn't respect my wishes. I did two shoots with them; the first had a bit of an odd flavour to it, but nothing that actually crossed the line. They persuaded me to shoot for them again the following week and I agreed on the understanding that it would be a light, short shoot and I'd be working alongside other models I knew well. I had another shoot coming up a few days later which I needed to be unmarked for, and I got their explicit agreement that they would be careful. I knew the venue owners and there'd be a lot of people around, so I figured it would be safe. They didn't stick to the agreement, though, and I didn't feel like my boundaries or wishes were being taken seriously. It's hard to describe what makes you feel like that, but once I start to feel uncomfortable, my pain threshold becomes much lower. I wasn't quite sure of how to handle the situation and the other models didn't seem to pick up on any of what I was sensing. But the director was dictating everything that happened rather than negotiating it; they used a different implement to the one they'd asked me to pick out before we started; they had no regard for whether they bruised me, despite our agreement, and strokes were wrapping and landing low. That kind of thing. One time I had to cut the scene to ask a question, because the CP was much harder than they'd led me to expect, and I hadn't been given enough information to feel comfortable. I didn't really trust them by this point, so I asked for a number; how many more strokes before we stop? Any reputable studio will tell you this unasked; mostly they'll decide in consultation with the model rather than just ploughing ahead without asking. But the director had a huff and made me feel like I'd ruined the scene. He made me feel bad about having cut, rather than trying to look after me because I was obviously uncomfortable. It was shocking because it was so unusual - normally the model's comfort is the first priority of everyone on set. I gritted my teeth through the rest of the set, collected my money and never worked for them again.
That's pretty much the only bad shoot I've had, though. One other studio has a tendency to ask me to do things I'm not into, like mentioning pee or other bodily fluids in the scene's dialogue - but in every other way they're respectful and courteous. I don't tend to shoot with them any more, but that's not because they're unsafe to work with - they're just producing a different kind of material than the stuff I'm into.
Have you any thoughts on why so many graduates are choosing to go into sex work?
I can't say I've noticed the trend! Having said that, I know that the spanking scene is a very privileged scene, on the whole. The majority of it in England is white, middle-class, educated. A lot of avuncular gentlemen who appreciate an educated young lady and a smart accent. But regardless of their class or education, I've noticed that the kinky people I've met tend to be articulate and self-aware. I guess if you've come to terms with having a sexuality which is frowned upon by the mainstream, that shows a certain independence of thought. Certainly in the spanking blogosphere, being analytical and thoughtful is pretty much the norm.
Respect and protection -do you think sex workers get too little or too much? (or just enough!)
I'd like to see a couple more protective measures in place. For instance, you'll notice that I haven't named the studio I've had uncomfortable experiences with. I've debated this one ever since it happened and I'm still undecided. On the one hand, I feel I should warn other models that they're unsafe, and I tend to do this in private conversation whenever it comes up. On the other hand, I don't want to start a confrontation in a public forum that will devolve into scene politics. I don't want to start a public debate about whether I was right to be offended or not; I don't want to rehash the experience that many times. I posted an article to a models-only forum about it and I've mentioned it to the other models I know, but I don't know if scene etiquette would permit me to name and shame them on my blog.
I've considered for a while starting a spanking-specific models-only forum for discussing this kind of thing, but I don't know how we'd moderate membership. I've also considered starting a private mailing list for the same purpose. I'm still considering it.
In the meantime, a lot of the spanking models and actresses in the scene write personal blogs. Some of them are marketing-oriented but a lot of them are deeply personal - and very political. There are a lot of feminists in the scene and our voices are gradually getting heard.
Blogging is a great safety net. Not only does it reassure non-kinky sceptics that yes, I love what I do and I'm not being oppressed or coerced, it provides a platform for me to be conscientious about the ramifications of the work I do, negotiate the tension between personal freedom and social responsibility. Dialogue of this kind is invaluable. Personally, I wouldn't feel comfortable making edgy or violent porn if I wasn't also blogging about why it's problematic and why I've made the decisions I have.
Another consequence of being a well-known blogger is that the people I work with will think twice before mistreating me! You acquire a sort of faux-celebrity status. It makes me feel a bit awkward - I don't particularly want to be famous - but I think it must keep me safe to some extent; I haven't had any problematic shoots since my blog started being widely-read. It's also given me the confidence and the motivation to only do work I enjoy and work with people I trust. I'm very evangelistic about blogging for porn actresses (and actors!) in any genre. I think it's the future of the industry. Giving voice to our desires and opinions is the necessary counterpoint to films where we're playing the victim. Blogging keeps us empowered and responsible, and I think the importance of that can't be overstated.